i feel like we are online dating. what if the past two months we have built up this pretend perfect relationship and when i come home, reality hits. what if you don’t want me when i’m home. what if i don’t want you? i’m scared

June 27th, 2010

When Pat and I are out together and at parties, we are inseparable pretty much straight away. We sit next to each other, share drinks and just have so much fun! I had some cigarettes Friday night which was bad.. Pat and I were bonding so much and he said some really cute things. He asked me if when we both finish school if I’ll run away with him and live in London. It would be awesome! We wouldn’t tell anyone and just adventure for 6 months or so. 

When your boyfriend asks you if you’d honestly ever tell him if you stopped loving him… you can only imagine what he’s thinking. Don’t scare me, im trusting you with everything